particularly lonely tonight. One of my closest friends has started taking her relationship with her boyfriend to the next level, and it make me so happy to see their love and happiness, but it makes me lament over my own loneliness.
don’t get me wrong, there have been plenty of good moments, but presently my general feeling is that this summer was a failure. I’ve been alone the entire three months, which in the beginning was nice, and now it’s just pathetic. It’s Saturday night and I just played the Sims3 for two hours, for example. Any remotely fun things that were going on this summer, I was not involved with for one reason or another (this is true in many ways, but mostly through family). The only vacations I’ve gone on are weekend or day trips to the beach.
I always remember my summers being jam-packed with fun, and this summer it was jam-packed with nothing. Loneliness. For the first time in a long time I’ve been completely alone: living alone in a barren college town, no boyfriend, no roommate, no best friend… Nothing but empty hours I’ve attempted to fill with watching tons of reruns on tv.